The day has finally come… my blog has hit over a 100 hits! This makes me happy!
Yes I know that that isn’t much.. but to be honest I didn’t ever expect to get over 100 hits… its very surprising for me.
And because of this I will actually work on EM-Zen later… after I go get my school books.. ugh expensive…
Well I will post some audio if I make anything worth listening to.. though since this EM-Zen most of it will probably be crap. XD
“Stay Zen.”
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
Sorry for not updating as much as I said I would anymore… I haven’t really been in the mood to write anything… it seems that things for me are getting worse and worse…
But I’m sure that things will turn around eventually… I just hope that eventually is soon…
I haven’t worked on any of my projects lately… I haven’t really been in the mood… er.. I will probably work on EM-Zen soon though. Mostly because its the one that is bugging me the most right now…
Right now I’m watching an anime called “Nabari no Ou”. Its really good… I will probably post pictures on it sometime soon.. when I’m not lazy… thats all for now… I’m gone. I will update as soon as possible… Just not within the next day or so… sorry.
“Stay Zen.”
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
I feel weird today… more weird than ever… I feel like something bad is going to happen to me… soon… And I have no idea what it could be… its kinda scaring me…. and I don’t know what to do…
As of now… this year for me has sucked and just about nothing has gone my way… except one thing which I’m afraid might hurt me in the end… I was right afterall….
Its amazing how the mind works sometimes…. it truly is… I want to understand a bit more… but I won’t be able to… ever. But… I guess I will have to accept that… though it will bug me forever…
As you can probably notice… the organization of my newer posts have become broken… I don’t know why… Its just happening… I haven’t been alright these couple of months…. I might quit writing here sometime soon. I don’t know… I realize why I write here.. but sometimes the reason why escapes me…
Sometimes I have wondered if I’m even remotely useful to this world that I live in sometimes… it seems that everything so far in my life is against me… and my mind isn’t helping at all.. all it can seem to do is think of the possible bad side to all my situations… and it stuff I don’t want to think about… but it happens anyway… my life has become distorted… and I can’t seem to restore it back to the way it was before… I guess thats what happens when life advances and you don’t want to go with it… I… can’t stay zen anymore… my mood changes too much lately…
And…
… I don’t know…
… I wish…
That I can be happy soon….
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
I’m in a horrible mood today… I stayed up until 3AM last night… thinking about a mistake I made earlier this year… I regret it a lot… yet there is nothing that I can do about it…
And so I’m tired… and not in a good mood today…
I’m frustrated… there is somethings that I can understand.. but love isn’t one of them… meh…
This entry isn’t going to be about anything in general… just what I’m currently thinking…
As I listen to my music… a lot of stuff comes to mind… past love… current wanting… the need to live… mistakes I have made… things I regret… stuff I have gotten angry over… the great friends I have… my current situation…
I need a job badly…yet I can’t really bring myself to do anything about it… I just can’t. I feel like my eyes just see everything… like its just a ride…and I can’t mess with anything… It sucks. I want to modify the way things are right now. But I can’t. So…I mess up. And I hate myself for it. And then I get over it, and then the cycle repeats… its frustrating… There is nothing I can do about them… I can’t avoid them….
I’m running out of ideas… for what to do with my life…. what to do in general… *sigh*… I’m just soo confused today…
Random thoughts are collecting together… And… yet I still can’t get what I want down…
I want… soo much… but I give soo little… my mind… is so tricky… fine… I will try to write my post that I said I was going to a while back…
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Currently and for a while I had a… theory to why somethings are hated… or disliked… but.. it was scrapped… for a while but then one day it made sense.
So… I would like to announce a not even close to official theory… The…
Because of Therefore theory…
What is basically breaks down to is this:
“Because of one thing that became popular but was a total bust. Things that follow after it become compared to it and are also hated.”
So for example…
Maplestory… lets face it. It sucks. The leveling system in it is horrible. And because of it. I can say that most people think that mmorpgs suck because of it.
Another great example is MySpace. Because of MySpace. The concept of getting as many “friends” as possible made it seem like you are “popular” and therefore that concept has spread to later social networking sites. And to be honest. Its a stupid concept. And it has spread to Twitter sadly. And it makes me pissed… The masses seem to miss the entire point of some sites. And just try to get a general idea without actually thinking about it and then abuse it while no one seems to do anything about it. And then the media hears about it. And then all hell breaks loose…
I’m lost… I have lost my train of thought… its taken me too long to write this post.. I’m done for now… peace
“Stay Zen”
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
There isn’t going to be much of a post this week… I’m trying to catch up with stuff… mostly my RSS readers…and getting my email inbox under control. But don’t worry! I’m going to get my entry that is actually worth reading done soon… I just need to think of how to structure it… *sigh*
I’m going to experiment soon with some 8-bit stuff some more… and some sound distortion effects… If I feel like it… If I come up with something worth listening to I will post it on here… and on Newgrounds.
I’m gone for now.
“Stay Zen.”
-SA (SerenaedAbyss)
Originally uploaded by serenadedabyss
Created by SA (SerenadedAbyss) as of ( July 2nd, 2008 ) via Terrgen…
I’m not in the best of moods… and this picture shows it…
I’m just soo cold and tired today… and thinking about a lot of things… don’t know whats going to happen next…
*Note- This picture is part of ProjectEternal. I will write a entry about ProjectEternal later… its about time I told the masses…
On a different note. I have been messing with audio stuff lately… and I think that my EM-Zen project will actually become true.
Just to fill anyone in on whats up with EM-Zen.
EM-Zen is an audio album project that I thought of about three weeks ago or so… maybe a bit longer… regardless… the EM stands for Electromagnetic so the full title would be “Electromagnetic-Zen”. I have no idea what the entire album is going to be like… it will just grow as I actually complete stuff.
This entire album will cover different styles of music though it won’t be very wide in genre. Mostly because I don’t have that many resources as of now… and one of my resources is not fully usable quality wise. So far here is what I’m going to be using.
My Nintendo DS - I need to get a cable so I can record sounds from it directly
FamiTracker - A tracker program that uses the Nintendo Entertainment System (NES) chipset is free
Reaper - Nice sound editing program that is free
Audacity - Possibly I’m not sure yet…
Thats it for now. I will do an update list when I actually get to add more stuff to my until them… I will leave you with this recording I did with my DS and Electroplankton. Electroplankton - Luminaria
I don’t have an mp3 recording of its only in ogg. Just because I didn’t feel like encoding in mp3 format. If you want to play it I suggest getting Xmplay or Winamp for Windows users. If you are using Linux then you should already have a player that can read that format natively. Well… I’m done for now. Peace.
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
P.S: If anyone is willing to donate me money for an actual copy of Electroplankton then that would be great. Because my project will not really be complete without a copy of the game.
In the next post or so… I am actually going to write something worth reading. Its going to take a while for me to gear up the boredom to actually write it some bare with me please…
And now… time for something boring…
As of late I have been messing with Zenwalk Linux…and to be honest… though I love the distro for what it is. It doesn’t have quite everything that I would prefer it to have… so I’m kinda conflicted… it doesn’t have IPv6 support… and compiling most stuff for it doesn’t work… mostly because it doesn’t have the dependencies.. and I don’t know how to even install dependencies… maybe I should look into that… but.. anyway… so I was thinking of returning back to Ubuntu just so I can have my cake and eat it to… so to speak.. but I’m not sure… If anyone ever bothers comparing those two distros… don’t hesitate to tell me what you think of both in a side by side comparison…
bah… I’m bored now… and I don’t know what to do anymore… I need to get a job soon… just so I have something to do during the day when I don’t have summer classes… and so I can actually have money to do stuff… ah… I’m done for now… I need to plan out my next post so that it will actually be worth reading… I don’t know if it will make any global impact but… if it can somehow change how someone thinks… then that will make me happy… I’m done for now… peace.
“Stay Zen”
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
Yes. This is the new and improved Eternal Journal!
With this new domain and design which I like very much. I am going to be updating a lot more. I suddenly feel like I have more to say. But I am going to miss the integration with my google account but whatever the was just mere convenice and Blogger is out of here. Here comes WordPress.
Now… I think I will stick to my update at least on monday rule for this one but who knows? I will most likely make an entry two days a week! Oh yes. Quite exciting right?
… Now I think I have made myself overexcited… so I’m going to end this and take a break… until next time.
“Stay Zen”
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
This is my latest work with Terragen… and will probably be my last for a while. Just so much has happened within these past few weeks… I don’t know if I can keep up anymore… anyway… enjoy it.
There might not be a blog entry for a while… I’m not sure. We will have to see… so until the next post…
Stay Zen…
-SA (SerenadedAbyss)
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